of motivation to do anything at all.
i don’t even feel like working on my tshirt surgery, either. meh.
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of motivation to do anything at all.
i don’t even feel like working on my tshirt surgery, either. meh.
when we sat
on your couch
at the window
looking out
at your cat
in the back
that was taking a nap
but you bitched about your ex
and how there wasn’t a next
and that was that
the cat’s sitting
in the back
and i’m feeling
like a sap
when you fall
and hit the ground
and there’s no one around
except that cat
in the back
just taking a nap
and you take me by the hand
and bring me back to the land
where i never
get attacked
just sitting on your lap
oh god
it’s just a trap
and like a deck of cards
i go floating through your yard
and you find the one you like
and you put it in your bike
and you make me go snap
and you get a big laugh
and i fall
to the ground
and there’s no one around
and i’m out
my eyeballs are burning out of their sockets in protest to the start of another week. at least, that’s what i’m telling myself anyway. though fairly soon i’m going to be just clawing out my own damn eyeballs…which is fine, i never liked my eyes much anyway.
today is distinctly a complete “meh” day. after what has been a completely meh couple of weeks. in fact, now that i think of it, the whole of june has pretty much sucked up one side and down the other.
i’ve been feeling off and out of sorts for a while now too. between work and life and everything all i know for certain is that the answer is not, in fact, 42. at least not now, not for this girl.
The Knee has struck vengeance on me for some unknown offense, 3 days running now. i am drugged, i am braced, i am ever-so-careful where/how i walk and such.
but it is useless. futile. The Knee doesn’t give the slightest shit one way or another, it has determined that i’m destined to suffer and suffer greatly.
i fucking hate this shit. it happens all the god damned time and i am getting so sick of it. totally inconvenient when you live up all the stairs in the damned world…
now i’m moderately crippled, irritable, annoyed by the heavy-duty neoprene action i got going on. sexxxytime, obviously.
ugh.
i feel like i really missed out on it this year. missed…missed out on something. maybe it’s just the whole year is moving so fucking fast already and i haven’t yet got a handle on it.
it doesn’t feel like summer yet — mind you, i am grateful for the mild humidity so far —i don’t quite know what it feels like.
disorienting.
i’m starting to think i suck the 12 dicks of failure these days. it’s taken me what…2, 3 weeks to get close (mind you, close) to finishing my tube top. i haven’t done anything cool with the website in forever, i haven’t written anything in forever, i have no urge whatsoever/nor inspiration to draw anything, and i have nothing good to read.
wait, scratch that, i just started a book on great white sharks that is pretty fuckin’ awesome…but it will be done a couple of days.
and as for games? i half-heartedly thought about playing lumines last night and totally discounted that idea in favor of drinking a shit ton of water and checking my email. i’m only mildly interested in guitar hero when i’ve already got a huge-ass headache to deal with, and it’s been EONS since i’ve hooked up my beloved NES. i only played a butt-ton of tetris this week out of necessity/being trapped in chicago.
the other day i was thinking about rampage and monkey ball…but something came up.
something always comes up.
never mind the million and one other hobbies i’d like to undertake or continue that always just get pushed aside.
meh.
considering how much of the stuff i seem to go through…
i’ve barely been at work a couple of hours and already my brainmeats are just starting to throb. everything is pissing me off and everyone is breaking stuff or ruining things or generally just pissing all over my damned wheaties. only this time, it’s nobody in chicago, but rather everyone who is wherever i’m not.
i’m so fucking frustrated with work right now that i don’t really know what to do to make it better.
of motivation to do anything at all. i don’t even feel like working on my tshirt surgery, either. meh.
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when we sat on your couch at the window looking out at your cat in the back that was taking a nap but you bitched about your ex and how there wasn’t a next and that was that the cat’s sitting in the back and i’m feeling like a sap when you fall and hit […]
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only god knows where i’ve been my eyeballs are burning out of their sockets in protest to the start of another week. at least, that’s what i’m telling myself anyway. though fairly soon i’m going to be just clawing out my own damn eyeballs…which is fine, i never liked my eyes much anyway. today is […]
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The Knee has struck vengeance on me for some unknown offense, 3 days running now. i am drugged, i am braced, i am ever-so-careful where/how i walk and such. but it is useless. futile. The Knee doesn’t give the slightest shit one way or another, it has determined that i’m destined to suffer and suffer […]
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i feel like i really missed out on it this year. missed…missed out on something. maybe it’s just the whole year is moving so fucking fast already and i haven’t yet got a handle on it. it doesn’t feel like summer yet — mind you, i am grateful for the mild humidity so far —i […]
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i’m starting to think i suck the 12 dicks of failure these days. it’s taken me what…2, 3 weeks to get close (mind you, close) to finishing my tube top. i haven’t done anything cool with the website in forever, i haven’t written anything in forever, i have no urge whatsoever/nor inspiration to draw anything, […]
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considering how much of the stuff i seem to go through… i’ve barely been at work a couple of hours and already my brainmeats are just starting to throb. everything is pissing me off and everyone is breaking stuff or ruining things or generally just pissing all over my damned wheaties. only this time, it’s […]
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