i have been up for entirely too long today. it’s already like…HOURS that i’ve been at work, on top of the freakish amount of HOURS i have been up already and it’s not even noon. god i hate meetings. especially useless, fruitless meetings where i’m half blown off anyway. bleh.
i am excited for the day regardless, though, because: KICKBALL!!!!
so excited for the new season am i that i fuckin’ made a bucket of sangria and hauled it in today for our first scrimmage. that’s motherfuckin’ dedication right there, boys & girls. dedi-fuckin’-cation. and i’m excited. a few careful modifications to my kickball tshirt and now it’s not this fugly shapeless thing of unfortunate colors (i really hate red, really i do) but it’s kinda cute. and functional. thus, i am pleased.
in fact, i was super productive last night: kick ass sangria makin’, successful t-shirt surgery completion, and i made some absolutely delish corn chowder. hell, i even did the dishes!
and tonight, after kickball festivities, i will have ugly betty waiting for me. hoo-ray.
all of these things are welcome distractions from the complete and utter shitstorm of stress and freakouts life has become right now. stress stress stressy stresssssssssssssssssssss. it’s ridiculous and i’m not even sure how i’m holding it together anymore. much less, how much longer it’s going to last before everything just falls the fuck apart.
the next two weeks are so crucial i can’t even deal with it. i hate being so ruled by things that are outside of my control. hate hate hate it.
i want a nap.
