if you want the first part, you’ll look here.
i can’t stop biting my nails; moreover, i’m not even bothering to try anymore | and thus, i’ve never had a professional manicure, but sometimes think i might like to. someday, just to feel pretty | i’m opposed to pedicures because people touching my feet freaks me out | i always, always have my toenails painted a bright, fun color | i think my feet look weird | i want to learn to french braid my own hair | i’m in desperate need of a haircut/hairstyle/haircolor change | i’m most likely too lazy to get it done anytime in the near future | and yet, i keep thinking about bangs…wtf? | and yet, i keep fantasizing about having bangs, probably a bad idea | i haven’t had bangs since i was 16…which is probably a good thing | more importantly, that’s like, the ONLY thing i can remember from being 16 basically | my memory is usually pretty much shitty…
actually, it’s really shitty | i can remember when tupac was shot, and all the lyrics on in utero, and every aching minute of the 2003 superbowl, but i can’t remember my first kiss, or any dreams i may have | or 90% of high school | i’m drinking cranberry juice right now, it’s one of my most favorite of juices | i need more juice in my life | which, incidentally, was a really awesome movie. oh tupac… | i need a haircut | i love working in the other offices in my company, i hate traveling there | in fact, i hate flying. LOATHE FLYING. fuck the tsa | but i want to travel more | i get lonely a lot, and it’s been getting worse lately | i’m loneliest when i don’t have something to read and get lost in | i devour books | humidity and i are no where near being friends, or even polite acquaintances | it has taken me hours to do this | that’s probably not a good sign, now that i think about it | i should be getting ready to go | oh, i absolutely HATE being late to things. i hate it. | i hate it when other people are late, too. i can’t stand being kept waiting | the world conspires to have me constantly run out of time… | i’m done.
(i don’t feel older…)
