it’s no great big secret that 2009 was one hell of a bumpy ride and i’m nothing short of fucking OVERJOYED to see it finally come to an end… but i’d be lying if i said there wasn’t some good that went with the bad (and the ugly!). in all honesty, it seriously was one hell of a year…and i can’t believe how quickly time just slipped through my fingers. am i ready for 2010? who knows? will it be better than 2009, i sure as shit hope so! am i gullible enough to think all my troubles are passing with the year end? definitely not.
january: it was pretty uneventful for me, if memory serves (which it usually doesn’t). i remember being beyond stressed and freaked out about my job and feeling like i was ever on the verge of being fired. what would i do with my life? how would i survive? constant, constant freakouts and worries. every little thing piling up. without work how would i handle bills, rent, health insurance, kitty care, car expenses and maintenance and so on and so on and so on. every day was a mild victory and preparation for the next uncertainty over the horizon. i did not think i would last out the month and it was frightening and tiring after a while. also, we were supposed to see radio 4 and did not. first concert of 2009 totally let me down (though not their fault). also: chinese new year was delicious, as always.
february: was pretty much eaten up by super bowl (oh my god…somuchfood!) and battlestar galactica. seriously, i’m not sure there was anything else worth it, and that’s ok because february is a stupid, short month anyway. one highlight, though, is my very first trip to providence. it was brief, but sweet.
it’s practically worthless. work was still maddening and a bit scary (now, with lower pay!), and i was trying to balance sorting out my work issues with my ladyparts issues while there was still health insurance to be had. frustrating squared!
march: brought some definite ends to a number of things. battlestar galactica, for one. and yes, i know it’s just a tv show but it was phenomenal and totally occupied like, my life for a good five years. most relationships don’t even last that long and are not nearly as entertaining. not by a long shot. march also brought the end of my stint as a potentially reproducing human. operation disable uterus was a rousing (if not mildly debilitating) success! and of course, as with anything remotely related to female reproductive health, it was also quite a bit humiliating and daunting. but by the end of it, i felt back to my regular self (i guess) and was thrilled to be “for recreational use only”! seriously, dream.come.true. also: a fortune literally fell into my lap (or, rather, blew onto my shoe). i know there was also Pi Day, but everything else really was a blur…
april: really, is there anything more important than the fact that i got yet another monumentally spectacular tattoo? because i did. and it was glorious and fabulous and awesome. and i loved it. i love it. i will love it forever because it is beautiful and marvelous. worship.my.tattoo. thus the rest of the year was colored in desire to have even more tattoos, and favoring my right foot over my left. i got to see chris cornell live, and it was eargasmic. i became a bit more secure (and frustrated) in my work life. same shit, different day. also, for the first time ever, planned my first Real Adult Vacation, in another country, even! viva mexico!
may: i had a bit of a last minute freak out and ended up in colorado for a week. my baby brother graduated junior high, do you see that?! GRADUATED.JUNIOR.HIGH. i realized i am getting pretty fucking old, and it was depressio for me. the month ended with part of the boy’s birthday celebration: whale watching off the coast of gloucester. it was magnificent.
june: was rough and disappointing. i think my life started seriously spiraling out of whack this month and i can’t even honestly say it’s gotten better or is back on track or anything yet. june was rough and difficult and disappointing, and that’s about it. of course, we did spend a halfway decent time in maine at the start of the month. i really am coming to enjoy maine. and we had our annual june birthdays celebration, that was good times had by all. however, my body started seriously revolting against me…
july: struggle struggle struggle. come to think about it, july and this entire summer of 2009 was pretty much unending horrible and disappointment and frustration. everything was completely wretched. just so utterly wretched, i don’t even want to think about it. the one beacon of joy this summer was my baby brother flying out for another visit. that was spectacular, an entire week of awesome. i love my brother. plus, we got to see staind together. it ruled!
august: kind of totally blew. frustrating and hot and lame. consumed with prep for mexico. totally freaking out financially and making really bad decisions left and right. except for the part where I TOTALLY FUCKING SAW TOOL! LIVE AND IN CONCERT! OH SWEET HOLY JESUS TITS FUCK YEAH!!!
september: um, MEXICO. really? is there any other purpose or reason or anything else that happened during this month? no, seriously. viva mexico! (oh, wait, we also saw the yeah yeah yeahs in concert! it was EPIC ROCK!)
october: apple picking and the gossip. that’s all you need to know, everything else is just details.
november: seriously the shortest, most insane month of the year, i think. it started off with a bang, with our annual dia de los muertos party and rapidly spiraled downhill after that. there was a 3-4 week period where i swear i was only in the apartment about twice, 3 non-consecutive nights total i think. i was in 4 separate states (not counting layover states in airports) in about 3 weeks. madness, utter madness, i tell you. i saw my family, and that was nice but under poor circumstances. officially, i have no more grandparents left. that makes my heart hurt. also: my best friend is getting married (holy shit, can you believe it?! CAN YOU!??!?!) and i’m going to be his best man. no shit, for reals. i die!
december: this month has been excruciatingly long and gone by all to fast at the same time. it’s been weird, really. for the first time ever in my entire life i did not go to colorado for christmas. that’s not to say i didn’t have a wonderful christmas here in massachusetts (is anything ever actually wonderful in MA, ever?! is that even possible?), but it was a bit heartbreaking. then again, i got to spend time with the boy and we had a fantastical feast of epic proportions and our very own tree and we got to see the slutcracker, which was just…unelievably epic and fantastic.
also, after being on only 80% pay for the bulk of the year, retro pay came through in a big way and i am now — finally, oh dear sweet jesus finally! — the proud (SO PROUD) owner of a gorgeous, delicious, utterly fantastic 13″ mac book pro! ENDLESS SQUEE UPON ENDLESS SQUEE!!!
and that…well, that’s my year end wrap up, i think. i know i left a lot out and there are things i don’t remember (either because i cannot or do not want to or whatever…), but that’s it…2009…probably going out with more of a whimper than a bang.
spending new year’s ever pretty low-key but catching a quiet desperation show with rob potylo at o’brien’s. which, i would be going to even if it weren’t NYE anyway, because i love it.
who knows what 2010 will bring? but, i suppose i’m ready as i’ll ever be?
