i feel like crap in the most threadbare and fugly of socks. i don’t even really know why, i just do. it’s awful.
i know i just scored awesome(ish) grades for my spring semester, but then i think about how much more i have to do and i get overwhelmed and freaked out. plus, every class i take is another huge debt i’m incurring. for what? why? is this even a smart thing i’m doing or am i just fucking myself sideways for no reason?
i’m too old for this bullshit anyway, right? god. fuck.
my apartment is a filthy, disgusting, revolting mess. i never have enough time in the day anymore. i’m tired all the fucking time. fuck fuck fuck. and there’s all this added pressure of moving and saving and saving to get out of debt and buy things and get a new apartment and pay for school.
i pretty much hate everybody and everything all of the time now.
it’s awesome.
fuck.
