plummeting, crashing, coasting, gliding, diving, slipping, plunging, tumbling, sliding…bracing, racing, terror, anticipation, excitement, confusion, apprehension, fusion. precarious downfall, delicious salvation — contradiction. precarious security swallowed in uncertainty. the unknown. complex anxiety. freedom immobilized by “what if”s. what if what if what if…why? complexity. to feel, to savor, to relish, to breathe, to taste, to touch, to see, to live…to fall… am falling, is falling, has been falling, will fall, has fallen… can’t stop? won’t stop? don’t want to stop? i don’t know, i don’t know, i don’t know…
i don’t know…
i don’t?
no…
