that’s the single most horrible sentence in the english language. because it’s so true. we don’t know. nearly all the time we have no fucking clue what we’re doing or feeling, but we run around pretending that we do. and life falls apart when we have to face the fact that we’ve never known. and probably never will.
yes, it’s fucking 1 am and i’m still awake. i don’t sleep. i used to, but i don’t anymore…not so much. when the rockstar asked me why i don’t sleep all i said was ‘i just don’t’ but he kept pressuring kept pressuring kept pressuring. i can’t take that kind of pressure…because it took all i had not to just say ‘i can’t sleep because you’re not here with me.’
through some act of god i said ‘i don’t know.’
sabrina asks me if i could ever be with him again after everything, and all i can say is ‘i don’t know.’ jetta asks me if i want to get back together with him, and i lie to us both and say ‘i don’t know.’
i ask the rockstar what it means if we both still love each other, are not over each other and miss each other.
his reply:
“i don’t know”
