just to avoid having to deal with his insanity via aim.
that’d be great, right? a rockstar-induced insanity-free existence. that would be heavenly, i think. yes, it would. absofuckinglutely heavenly.
(is it wrong to use fuck & heavenly in the same phrase? oh wait…i care not…)
heh.
no seriously, i’m considering blocking him on aim just because since the other day it’s been fucking with my god damned process. so he only signs in to say hi to me. he likes talking to me. he misses talking to me when he doesn’t get the chance to. which only goes to drive me completely fucking starkers and want nothing more than to run up and down the streets of boston screaming my lungs out just in the hopes of expelling some of the madness that this all causes.
jesus h. christ on a bike…how do people deal with shit like this? how am I supposed to deal with this? honestly? i mean…where in the hell did it all get so fucking fucked the fuck up? where did i go so fucking wrong?
i hate this. i really do. i honestly think it sucks up one side and down the other. i just don’t have the energy to deal with it anymore. i don’t have the strength. fuck it.
i’m blocking his ass.
