i have the cape. i make the fucking whoosh noises!

b.l.o.g.

the yeah yeah yeahs have a new album coming out this year, and i cannot wait. seriously.

it is so good. i just want to listen over and over and over again (which is what happens with all their albums). and how much do i love karen o? sodamnmuch.

goal of 2009? fucking SEE THEM LIVE. last time they did a free — motherfucking FREE, son! — show in boston, in government center, and we did not go because we had to take someone to eat fuckin’ sushi. what the fuck is that?

fuck sushi.

death to the throne remix: poor song
[audio:poorsong.mp3]

hysteric:
[audio:hysteric.mp3]

soft shock:
[audio:softshock.mp3]

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now that’s what i call bromance!
2.22.09 at 2:50 pm

category : amuserings & musings

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i never said good-bye
2.20.09 at 2:30 pm

category : ::sob::, mehz0rz

because as bad as it sounds, my mind was occupied by other things at the time. i wasn’t necessarily distracted so much as putting it off, i suppose. too busy thinking about how small he was and how badly i wanted him to feel better and how much i would give to make everything ok. everything back the way it was…the way it was when the world was ok.

i never said good-bye because that is final. it is ending a chapter and slamming the book shut and turning out the lights and being finally and completely over, and i could not do that. of all the things i can and have done in my life, i have to say that i am just not strong enough for some. and could not bring myself to say it. the words stopped in my throat, choked back by the way the world was squeezing in on us, crushing us all down. ghost words swimming in the back of my throat, in a sea of tears. bitter words.

it’s been a while…27,843,200 seconds; 630,720 minutes; 10,512 hours; 62 weeks; 14 months; 1 year 2 months 10 days…and every hurt is just as fresh as ever. i can close my eyes and re-live every single moment right down to the nanosecond and when i open them the world is bright, stark and thrumming with pain that has not lessened one instance since then.

but it is never about what was left unsaid, the words that some people say should be spoken. it would not have changed anything, it would not have stopped anything…it would have been a cold, false comfort in a world where there is none.

i never said good-bye…

because i was too busy saying i love you.

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M-O-O-N, that spells habit-forming
2.19.09 at 10:52 am

category : books

i’m re-reading the stand again, first time in ’09! i don’t know what it is about that book, but i seem to keep reading it and re-reading it and re-reading it over and over again. three or four times a year, i think. it’s definitely one of my favorite novels, but not like, the absolute most awesome and loved book ever. i enjoy it, as much as i think anyone can. i mean, at the end of the day, if you take a long, hard look at it…the stand really is just a kind of bible fanfiction.

which is hilarious.

and of course, i can appreciate the elements that factor into the dark tower series.

the best part about this book is i found it, the complete and unabridged version, just lying on a bench in the central square T stop one day. found it, read it (i had read it before) and again and again over the years.

perhaps it’s because sometimes, the idea of a massive plague/catastrophe wiping out the majority of mankind actually sounds like a great idea. i could go about my day with fewer asshats to put up with and at the very least shit would be tolerable. especially if massachusetts is wiped off the face of the planet, that’s a dream right there. as the book says, it would be no great loss.

and of course, for some reason reading the stand on the subway makes you hyper-aware of every gross, sniffly, snuffly, coughing, sneezing, wheezing, dirtbag there. but, on the other hand, it’s quite the easy book to get lost in. a smooth, quick read that i know like the back of my hand, and still haven’t gotten tired of.

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tasty fuckin’ cupcake time!
2.14.09 at 1:19 pm

category : daily grind, kitchen-fu

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BATTLESTARBATTLESTARBATTLESTAR!
2.13.09 at 4:08 pm

category : amuserings & musings, filler, glee

it’s friday, which means it’s…

all.about.battlestar galactica.

now, with less gaeta!!!

and MORE angry starbuck (sweet jesus)!

also, don’t fuckin’ mess with the prez’s cock supply, man. just don’t.

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zapp & roger
2.10.09 at 6:32 pm

category : blahblahblah, music

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d.u.m.p.s.t.e.r.

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Wednesday, February 25th, 2009

the yeah yeah yeahs have a new album coming out this year, and i cannot wait. seriously. it is so good. i just want to listen over and over and over again (which is what happens with all their albums). and how much do i love karen o? sodamnmuch. goal of 2009? fucking SEE THEM […]

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i never said good-bye

Friday, February 20th, 2009

because as bad as it sounds, my mind was occupied by other things at the time. i wasn’t necessarily distracted so much as putting it off, i suppose. too busy thinking about how small he was and how badly i wanted him to feel better and how much i would give to make everything ok. […]

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M-O-O-N, that spells habit-forming

Thursday, February 19th, 2009

i’m re-reading the stand again, first time in ’09! i don’t know what it is about that book, but i seem to keep reading it and re-reading it and re-reading it over and over again. three or four times a year, i think. it’s definitely one of my favorite novels, but not like, the absolute […]

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tasty fuckin’ cupcake time!

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