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hopeless
6.2.18 at 1:58 am

category : daily grind

i really feel like i fucked it up. every day i don’t hear something feels worse and worse. so now i feel trapped, i hate my current situation and i don’t know if i’ll ever find a way out of it.

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i want it
5.30.18 at 11:01 pm

category : daily grind

i keep trying to tell myself not to get my hopes up, but oh god…i want it. i keep thinking about it, how much i need it. i want it now. i’m so scared, and nervous, and afraid that i’ve mucked everything up. i want it so bad. fuck.

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fears
11.28.13 at 2:00 am

category : daily grind, mehz0rz

i feel like i’m never going to get out from under …all of this.

how much longer am i going to be healthy and able enough to work? how much do i need to earn to make sure i can live? what if i never own a home? what is going to happen when i get old?

i’m lately plagued with a very real and very terrifying fear of ending up broke, alone, and cold and homeless. i’m actually paralyzed by the fear of ending up homeless in my old age or even not so old age. 10 years from now, what if i’m homeless? what…how…ugh i don’t even know how to stop it. but i’m terrified.

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dusting off cobwebs and such
11.19.13 at 9:42 am

category : blahblahblah, daily grind, mehz0rz

i haven’t been here in ages, it seems. but like, you can’t ever really walk away from this much history, you know? all my good things are here…well, some of them. all of my bad things, too. pain, memories, misery, despair…all that shit. this is where it lives. and maybe that’s why i’ve been gone so long? who knows.

but, you can’t ever really walk away. and it’s not like ‘oh wow, i’ve been so happy and thrilled all this time!’ quite the opposite, really. but it’s like, i just haven’t made an effort. which is just the lamest excuse there is, really. like, what is that, even?

it takes too much effort?

that’s pretty dumb.

i really need to work on that, though. it’s like so many things are being put off in life. all the things. and for what, really? what is the point? what am i waiting for? and it seems like i’m always waiting for something. waiting and waiting and just not much actual doing, you know? also pretty dumb.

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snow day with the puppy
3.19.13 at 10:41 am

category : daily grind

machete knows what snow days are all about.

naps

naps

and MOAR NAPS!!!

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PUPPY PUPPY PUPPY!
11.28.12 at 12:27 pm

category : blahblahblah, daily grind

i may have a bit of a corgi obsession (duh)

and it’s gone into overdrive…

yeah, that’s my work computer. all 8 workspaces (“desktops”) of it…
(featuring waffles the corgi)

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weekend DIY
10.29.12 at 9:29 pm

category : amuserings & musings, daily grind

finally got around to some DIY projects around the house this weekend and worked on some party prep. cannot wait till the house is completely finished…

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d.u.m.p.s.t.e.r.

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hopeless

Saturday, June 2nd, 2018

i really feel like i fucked it up. every day i don’t hear something feels worse and worse. so now i feel trapped, i hate my current situation and i don’t know if i’ll ever find a way out of it.

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i want it

Wednesday, May 30th, 2018

i keep trying to tell myself not to get my hopes up, but oh god…i want it. i keep thinking about it, how much i need it. i want it now. i’m so scared, and nervous, and afraid that i’ve mucked everything up. i want it so bad. fuck.

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fears

Thursday, November 28th, 2013

i feel like i’m never going to get out from under …all of this. how much longer am i going to be healthy and able enough to work? how much do i need to earn to make sure i can live? what if i never own a home? what is going to happen when i […]

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dusting off cobwebs and such

Tuesday, November 19th, 2013

i haven’t been here in ages, it seems. but like, you can’t ever really walk away from this much history, you know? all my good things are here…well, some of them. all of my bad things, too. pain, memories, misery, despair…all that shit. this is where it lives. and maybe that’s why i’ve been gone […]

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snow day with the puppy

Tuesday, March 19th, 2013

machete knows what snow days are all about. naps naps and MOAR NAPS!!!

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PUPPY PUPPY PUPPY!

Wednesday, November 28th, 2012

i may have a bit of a corgi obsession (duh) and it’s gone into overdrive… yeah, that’s my work computer. all 8 workspaces (“desktops”) of it… (featuring waffles the corgi)

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weekend DIY

Monday, October 29th, 2012

finally got around to some DIY projects around the house this weekend and worked on some party prep. cannot wait till the house is completely finished…

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